Update Cont

Happy Easter!

Big Bro was so awesome to foccus on just helping his sisters find their eggs. 

Having a tea party with her new tea set from the Easter Bunny!

 St. George & Mesquite

We went to Mesquite for a dance competition for Grace.  It was a fun to get away and spend some time together as a family.  Faith loved bowling :)

Not to mention how awesome my bowling shoes went with that dress!!!!

 Happy Birthday Grace...Gracie's cousin who she has grown up with that is only a month older than her wasn't going to be there for her bday party so she came over and surprised her with a little party of her own.  It was adorable.  I mean cake, presents, games, ect.  Grace loved it.

Shooting fun with the Philpots...

If anyone knows my husband they know that he loves guns.  So you aren't a Philpot unless you get your own bebe gun at age 5 and start to learn all the rules and safety ect of guns.  We are dorks but it is actually so nice to go out after a long day and Max gets home from work and do some target practice and spend time together in the moutains :) Grace loves her bebe gun but after she has had her fun she just likes to play in the sand or go on adventures.

 I love how at even younger than this she just leaves her ear plugs on.  She is like oh just another Tuesday night with my family :)  I will just go to sleep with gun shots are going off.

 I dont think daddy could be more proud of this little one...definitely his lil mini me, and little princess :)

 

 So stylin'Grace.  I mean it is the perfect outfit for shooting guns in the mountains right?

 

Update- Part 1

It has been awhile.  I wasn't even sure if I would ever post again.  Mainly due to the fact the main person I blogged for is not here anymore to look at her cute grandbabies :(  Which is also another reason is that I am still trying to figure all of this our myself that I dont feel ready to write about a big event in my life but I also dont want to just skip over it as if it never happened.  So I am sure in time I will write about it but I guess I feel that I am at a place where I can at least start posting pictures of my kids again.  I truly had lost all passion or want to even take pictures, which is not like me at all.  I think I took a total of 3 pictures during Christmas time.  I just barely started wanting to take pictures again.  So this must mean I am healing a little bit.  So here are a bunch of pictures from the last 4-5 months to get you up to date with the Philpot Fam.

We basically remodeled our entire house.  All new flooring upstairs which meant moving everything out, and at the same time the basement was being finished so all of our stuff was in the garage and on our back patio.  It was fun stuff I tell you :)

My kid are the ONLY thing that keeps me going everyday.  These two girls are my best friends. 

Daddy took me and the girls to Little America for Valentines Weekend.  It was so nice to get away from the craziness of our life for a couple of days.  Brother was able to come up for one night which was so nice to have him there.  Grace and I went and got pedicures and manicures, we went to an awesome toy store, amd then daddy took Faith and Grace to the Gateway to do some shopping :)

 Always a dancer...no matter where we are at :)

 These monsters in the pictures kept coming and going and Faith LOVED them.

 Happy V-Day to daddy's girls.  We all got our own flowers and our traditional singing cards

 Baby Girl turns 5!

Putting up Christmas Lights with DAD

We took these pictures for Granna, and it was actually a very peaceful happy day.  We didn't know that at the time these were taken Grandma was no longer with us.

Grace insisted that Oscar had a bday hat.  We inheirted our dog back (long story) from my mom after she passed.  He has brought so much love and comfort to this family.  We dont know what we would do without him.

Rapunzel bday, we thought it was fitting since everyone tells Gracie she looks like Tangled anyways.  With 18 kids invited for games, cake and presents and 10 of those 18 ended up having a sleepover.  Lets just say mama was sooooo tired the next day.  All that matters was that it was everything Grace picutred and more!

 After a dance competition, she NEVER would have makeup on like that on a normal day :) But she still looks absolutely goregous

 Grace is such a good big sister.  She teaches Faith so much.  They play and play together and are best friends.  Here she is reading to lil sissy.

 Let Dance Competition Season Begin :)

 Yes, that is a wig...I would never cut her hair :)  There whole team has to wear these wigs.  Kind of funny to see Grace with hair like that though.

 Faith fell asleep eating her chicken wing.  My kids LOVE the chicken wings with the bone and everything. 

 A few pics Grace took of the mama :)

Suicide as a Result of an Endogenous Depression

How many of you have felt really, really hopelessly depressed? Then you know what it is like. If you multiply this by ten, then you will know what a manic-depressive feels in his or hers depression. Nothing makes any sense, nothing! It's...it's worse than nothing. It's total vacuum. There is absolutely no way of getting out into the sunshine. And for the depressed person, the only solution is to end it all like this, because it has become unbearable. You understand that at the end, when you do the life review after you die, that will be evaluated as if you had died of cancer. That form of depression and suicide is an illness that you are not held responsible for. In my heart I do believe this, you were the most selfless wonderful person I will ever know. You didnt deserve this. I love you mama....