My Handsome DaddyIt was 6 years ago yesterday that my handsome papa passed away. It is still so surreal and so raw. I stay very guarded 99% of the time and try not to really think about it or let myself feel. I always break down for the week leading up to it. I was cooking dinner on Sunday night and started thinking about him when I was little and what an amazing father he was and all the things he did with us girlers...I was bawling before I even knew it and just sat down on the kitchen floor. I hate that I hold things in because then when they surface it is BAD. Gracie doesn't really understand it still she just thinks it is neat that Grandpa Kevin went to heavan ryhmes :) I hung out with my sister and my girls yesterday all day and that was so nice. He would've loved these two little ones I created. And they would've LOVED him :)
We watched his video last night and everytime I tell myself ok dont cry especially because Gracie watches Grandpa with me...but it never fails the tears come flowing. Except when Gracie side tracks me because she wont stop asking which one is me and which one is Aunt Maymee in all the pictures. She cant even tell us apart ????? LOL I finally say Grace just watch the movie ;)
I love you daddy so much!
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Why does death have to be so sad and hard for those of us left behind? Time flies right on by but the missing doesn't seem to lessen.
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